Bloodstream - Alyssa Grace (lyrics)

Maybe I was too young to fully understand
That's why I never healed from it healthy
Why I never trusted the man
You gotta love all that you have and I'll take that to my grave
Cause soon you'll open up your eyes and it'll all be gone one day
And I'm sittin...g here convincing you to pick up the phone and call
I am my father's daughter but I'm nothing like him at all
I hear him in the way I speak
Or when I look in the mirror
The anger's grown in me it shows
Could it be any clearer
That I'm like him cause he made me the way I am when we're fighting
And all I need is somebody
And I'm crying on my mama's floor
Why don't you want this anymore?
And I'm craving you to change for me
You're saying "I hear you", and "I love you", "But my heart it hurts for you"
And "I just cannot give you what you need"
Am I too much? Am I enough
Cause you said you wouldn't give up
Now I'm numb on my knees
Praying to God you talk to me
Wondering what it takes for you to stay
Off my mind and far out of my bloodstream
You never laid your hands on me
And that's something that I'm grateful for
But I should've known that you'd gone mad
When I saw the way you'd punch your doors
And I don't regret loving you
'Cause I know that you needed it
But the way you treated me
Made me feel like a little kid
Something deep inside of me tells me that you're not better now
And I'm sorry that I couldn't help
But I'm so glad I made it out
And I'm crying on my mama's floor
Why don't you want this anymore?
And I'm craving you to change for me
You're saying "I hear you", and "I love you", "My heart it hurts for you"
And "I just cannot give you what you need"
Am I too much? am i enough
'Cause you said you wouldn't give up
Now I'm numb on my knees
Praying to God you talk to me
Wondering what it takes for you to stay
Off my mind and far out of my bloodstream +